|Amber Louise Jacobs|
Here's our birth story -
There are two things I dread about a csection:
1. The IV
2. The spinal block
Nope, not the surgery itself. Not even the recovery. Just those two parts that involve needles that I can feel. Apparently I have difficult veins so I always end up covered in bruises. Then the spinal block is just plain scary! And this time around it was quite painful. AND it didn't work nearly as well as expected. The "pressure" was so intense it was painful and I was on edge the whole surgery just waiting for it to fail! PRAISE THE LORD it did not.
Meanwhile, my amazing doc was training a nurse on her first csection assist (you did amazing, Emily! Thank you!) and I overheard him say, "See how thin her uterus is? I can open it with my finger. This is why we do sections earlier. If we had waited another week, her uterus would have ruptured."
Finally, our sweet Amber Louise was born! After 30 excruciating seconds of no breathing, she finally let out a single cry then was laid on my chest where she nursed for the rest of the surgery! Poor Derek barely got to hold her the whole first day!
Before closing me up, my doc asked us to confirm that we wanted a tubal done. After lots of prayer, a very difficult pregnancy, a scary painful surgery, and a nearly ruptured uterus, we both confidently gave the thumbs up.
Derek did get a couple minutes of snuggling Amber while I was transferred onto a different bed to be wheeled out of surgery (I could already move my toes at this point! So glad that's over!)
I was convinced that this would be the hardest recovery because I hadn't worked out in months (which was by the grace of God!! He knew that my baby was big and my uterus was weak. I'm oh so grateful for His intervention!) and because it had been such a rough pregnancy. But...
It has been the easiest recovery of all!
I credit it to my surgeon, my Plexus, and most of all my God.
So here we are, two weeks later, on our Bookend Baby's due date. We are all healthy. We are all so happy. We are all so blessed.
And Amber Louise is by far our easiest babe! She sleeps two 4-5 hour stretches every night. She eats like a champ. She is completely unfazed by the chaos that is this household. She fits right in with no effort.
I'll tell ya, there are moments when the weight of our decision to get a tubal weighs so very heavy. In fact it brings me to tears sometimes. It helps to remember the times when I was very confident of being done with pregnancy because God did make it clear. But the weight of such a huge decision... well I can't carry it alone and I'm grateful that I don't have to.
Moving into the chapter of life where baby bearing is over and it's all about baby raising is incredibly bittersweet. So I'm soaking in every last baby snuggle I possibly can and allowing myself to even get a little excited about what's next!
|Stretches in my arms while I type this :)|