Have you ever wondered what it would be like to sit in the presence of The Lord? I've always felt distanced from God. It's as if my head is so clogged up with knowledge about God and who He is that none of it has made it to my heart. After years of theological and doctrinal studies I packaged God all up into a nice neat little box that explains everything that we know about Him from the Bible.
In November last year our pastor announced that an organization called Time to Revive was going to be coming to our area. I was super excited about the idea of revival. I've heard about revivals from the past and how God does amazing unexplainable things and brings thousands into the kingdom. I didn't really understand all the details of this new ministry, but I knew I was ALL IN!
January 12th, prayer week began. A whole week of praying morning, noon, and night every day. I was there every chance I could, and something very unexpected happened. God began moving in an amazing and unexplainable way throughout our community. Every prayer meeting I attended I could feel that I was entering into the presence of the Lord. Then it happened. The main speaker began talking about healing and prophesying. My theological alarms were sounding a red alert. However, I couldn't deny the fact that at every prayer meeting, I was personally meeting with God. He was there every time. I scrutinized every word and passage preached, and everything I was hearing was in line with scripture, it just didn't fit into my theological grid.
Revival is here in Indiana, and our prayer week has been extended to 52 days. I am deeply struggling with the theology being preached, and yet I love going and experiencing the presence of The Lord. I feel like Peter when he walked out on the water to meet with Jesus. He eagerly jumped out of the boat and began walking. But then he noticed how big the waves were and how fierce the storm raged and fear gripped him. He began drowning in the midst of it all. I jumped into this Revive Indiana from the start, but now it's as if the Holy Spirit is doing something so huge that I'm fighting to keep my head above water. I can't explain or understand all that God is doing. For the first time in my life my God is so big that I can't put him in a box. And you know what...it's wonderful.