Saturday, August 6, 2011

A Money Rant (or two)

I had a thought the other day... What would our country be like if government officials (and I'm talking all the way up to the big kahuna) had to raise their own income? Much like they do when campaigning. Can you imagine how much harder they would work? I mean, they'd actually be working for the people!! They would have to listen to us, report back to us, and do what they said they would so they would get their next paycheck.

I'm not looking for any kind of debate! It was just a thought.

A nice thought.

Moving on.

I have a problem with ministry today. Maybe it's always been like this, I don't know, but I have a problem with the fact that people who give their lives to the work of the Creator and His saving Son get paid CRAP.

Yeah, I know, money shouldn't matter or whatever. And anyone I know who works in full time ministry (Derek included) wouldn't trade their job for any kind of pay raise. But still, shouldn't we be taking care of each other?

Let me answer that... YES.

I'm not talking about emergency kind of taking care of each other. I'm talking about wages. I'm talking about getting paid a decent amount equivalent to the work you do.

Of course if that happened, all full-time ministry people would be millionaires.

While we're on the subject, why shouldn't stay-at-home mom's get paid? We're raising the future!!

Hey, it's a nice thought. I like those kinda thoughts.

Can you tell that money is tight around here? I'm so torn because, like I said in my last post, I'm living my dream. I've always dreamed of being a stay-at-home mom. I've always hated working, even when it was a somewhat enjoyable job. I've always said, I'm just not built to work outside the home.

But can I really justify staying home when the account reads $25.00 a week and a half before payday? And that's before groceries. And when Derek's job just can't pay him any more than they are? There's just no light at the end of this dark and stressful tunnel.

I loath the idea of getting a job. I've been searching online but can't seem to get myself to make any calls. I really don't feel God's leading in finding a job, but could I just be missing it because I really really don't want to do it?

I'm not even a very good manager of my home. My house is usually a mess. My daughter watches movies all the time. I have stacks of papers in three different places in our bedroom. If I were to get a job, how much worse would I be?

I'm so tired of wondering how we'll pay for gas. I'm so tired of hoping no one notices we didn't bring a gift, especially when giving is one of both Derek and my favorite things to do. I'm so tired of hot dogs and pasta. I'm so tired of this never ending battle that we are so quickly losing.

I know I am so blessed. I'm just tired.


  1. I can so relate with your thoughts and feelings... so often I try to suppress them, but, sometimes I just need to vent - probably how you were feeling.
    We have gone through some VERY tuff and tight times -and we continue, too, even now after hospital visits and having a new baby. But something I'm learning every day is how amazing it is to watch and see how God provides for our NEEDS. Challenge yourself in that area. It was such a help for me in my time of struggle and almost bitterness about these same things.
    Some day {Lord Willing} you will be able to look back and see how precious these trying days are. Praying for you.

  2. Lindsay, I know exactly where you are coming from and how you are feeling. It is hard. I have been going through the EXACT same thing over here. But one thing I have learned is that God is faithful. He hard as it is to believe. I have been praying for the same thing and God has opened a door for a part time job that I am absolutely excited about. I still get to raise my babies but also get to help bring just a little extra income. I will be praying for God's provision for you guys.


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